SS officer

Do you know how it feels hearing the screams of people dying everyday? Watching women and children get punched and kicked . Working as an SS officeer is definely not the easiest job, especially if you know what your doing is wrong. The thing is in order to survive and make my father proud I am one the horrible men beating women and children and killing people.my father is a proud German and he made me do this. I had wanted to become a teacher. I love kids and teaching them, but instead i am killing them.

I have never really hated the Jewish like most of the other SS officers, i think of them as people just like everyone else. Luckily i work in the music block so i dont have to kill very many people only smack them around if they act up. I am not with the women either i am with the men which is a little bit better. There have been so many times where i have just wanted to quit and walk out of that horrible place but i fear for my life and i would hate to have my father be disapointed in me. I have to do this.

Some of the other SS officers absoultely hate me because thye dont think i am comminted to this job enough. They even made me shoot a jew just to see i could do it. The man hadn;t even acted up they just picked him out from the line of men and i had to shoot him right on the spot. That moment has changed my life forever. I will never forget the look on that mans face right before i pulled the trigger and watched the bullet tear through his chest. I did everything i could to hold back the tears that day. Ever since then i have been hiding all of my emotions i don't smile, or frown, or even speak unless I am giving orders.

As soon as this all is over i am going to my father and telling him the truth about how i feel. About how this was the worst expierence of my life and i hope he will realize he made a big mistake sending me here. Then i am gonna become a teacher and do what i love.